If you follow me on twitter, tumblr or youtube then you may already be aware of my indiegogo campaign to raise money to buy and HD video camera and studio lights to be able to shoot photos and videos at home. If not then you can check out the video bellow which gives a brief summary:
I am so happy to have gotten so much support already from my fans, as of this post I am 44% of the way to my goal! I cannot emphasize how much this will help improve the quality of my life. I have to admit I am still having a difficult time emotionally accepting my new physical limitations.I absolutely love my day job and recently had my work published which is a huge boost to my career. However I can no longer deny the fact that my job is causing me more pain than I can handle and is harmful to my mental and physical health. My daily commute alone is a struggle to get though.
I’ve lived my whole life with chronic pain since I was born with spondylosis in my lumbar spine (basically that just means I was born with a fractured vertebra). I knew some day I would likely end up with nerve damage or paralysis, I just never imagined things would get so bad while still in my 20′s.
We cannot choose who we are born as but we can choose who we become. As a Buddhist I have learned that happiness is simply a state of mind. No specific external circumstances must be meet for someone to be happy. Happiness is seeing the light amdist the shadows; it’s feeling the pleasure in simple moments. Acceptance isn’t giving up; it’s seeing the beauty in what’s around you.
While it will take some time for me to transition from working full time outside my home to working mostly from home I am excited (although still somewhat nervous) for the future. I love shooting photos and videos for my fans and being able to do so from home will mean I can shoot more often. I also have some non-modeling related projects coming up that I am looking forward to. I plan to get back into jewelry making. It’s something I enjoyed doing in high school and won a few awards for so I figure I must be somewhat good at it. I am also starting a website related (somewhat) to my current career. I’m still paying off student loans so I might as well use my degree to make some money.
For the time being I am going to be focusing on my indiegogo campaign and making sure people get the perks for their donations. I am offering some fun things including prints, custom photo sets, bondage photos, & custom videos. So please check out my campaign HERE. Even a small donation will really help.