My health issues have been getting worse to the point where it’s really hard for me to continue working. My doctors are not giving me any good options for pain management. After a lot of research and talking to other people with chronic pain I have decided to try ketamine infusions. It’s not something my insurance will cover and with my limited ability to work it will take me a long time to save up for this on my own. Please consider donating to my Go Fund Me page if you can’t afford to donate then sharing this on any social media page would be helpful too.
And since I know people out there create fake stories about illness or car accidents just to trick people into giving them money here is the MRI showing all the screws and rods in my L5-S1 vertebrate from my 2 surgeries and the photo bellow shows the scar running along my spine.
After a lot of debate, and a lot of looking for older videos, I decided to create a membership site for my wet & messy fetish photos and videos. The domain is the same but now it’s a whole new site with hours of streaming videos, previously unreleased photos and my private blog for members only 😉
There are currently over 60 of my wet and messy videos up (over 11 hrs of footage!) with new updates multiple times a week. For a ton more previews go to WamErotica
I have already cut back on shooting other types of content and will mostly be focusing on my members site. Video production is getting harder and harder with my physical limitations so I am shifting my focus to other projects. Currently I am teaching myself abobe illustrator and trying to get better at coding. My goal is to become a computer programmer & graphic designer. I’ve had so many jobs over the years, modeling has been the most consistent thing for me and not something that I want to give up completely. I’m also still thinking of doing something with my bio degree but not totally sure what. I’ve never been good at doing one thing. I like to be constantly busy and learn new things all the time. I think I have career ADHD, lol.
This is why I got into modeling. To be weird, to be creepy, to be myself in a way most people never get to be.
I have no interest in conventional beauty. I’m not interested in some superficial popularity contest on any media platform.
I don’t care if my opinions alienate me. I don’t care if I offend you.
I’m not here to mold my body into anyone else’s view of perfection. I seek my own perfection and stay true to my values of health, intelligence and spirituality.
“That life – whatever else it is – is short. That fate is cruel but maybe not random. That Nature (meaning Death) always wins but that doesn’t mean we have to bow and grovel to it. That maybe even if we’re not always so glad to be here, it’s our task to immerse ourselves anyway: wade straight through it, right through the cesspool, while keeping eyes and hearts open. And in the midst of our dying, as we rise from the organic and sink back ignominiously into the organic, it is a glory and a privilege to love what Death doesn’t touch.”
― Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch
For this shoot I wanted to do a very different look for myself and I have been looking for a good excuse to use my purple & grey wig. I’m very happy with the results 🙂 These photos were taken by Michael Leach who used a lighting technique that shows off the curves of a person’s body well. I’m glad I have been working out a lot since this highlights my muscle definition fairly well.